Ruptured ectopic pregnancy<\/a> (with removal of left tube and a chunk of my uterus), December 2009<\/p>\nand now….<\/p>\n
Miscarriage at 6 weeks, March 2010.<\/p>\n
The doctor said repeatedly that I didn’t do anything wrong.\u00c2\u00a0 That it isn’t my fault that this happened.<\/p>\n
But at the same time, I was thinking….<\/p>\n
Maybe I shouldn’t have taken that Amoxocillin and Tylenol for my sinus infection, even though both my family doctor and OB said it was safe for early pregnancy.<\/p>\n
Maybe I shouldn’t have been drinking even the DECAF coffee (because it still has a little bit of caffeine).<\/p>\n
Maybe I should have eaten more veggies.<\/p>\n
Maybe it’s because I’m overweight.\u00c2\u00a0 (Though my BP and cholesterol are a-ok, and my doctor said that this shouldn’t make a big difference…)<\/p>\n
Maybe I should have exercised more.<\/p>\n
Maybe I should have done less and relaxed more.<\/p>\n
Maybe I shouldn’t have lost my cool and yelled at Finn yesterday.<\/p>\n
Maybe this is God’s way of telling me that we’re only meant to have one child.<\/p>\n
Maybe we should have waited longer after the ruptured ectopic.\u00c2\u00a0 They did take a wedge out of my uterus, after all.\u00c2\u00a0 After the doctor told me that the pregnancy wasn’t viable, he also said that it is probably for the best.\u00c2\u00a0 That maybe it was too soon after the ruptured ectopic and that I should let my uterus heal a little longer before trying again.\u00c2\u00a0 (Wait!\u00c2\u00a0 Didn’t he also say that I didn’t do anything wrong?\u00c2\u00a0 And tell me that it was okay to go ahead and try again back in January?!\u00c2\u00a0 Way to make me feel guilty.)<\/p>\n
I think The Picky Apple and I (and the doctor, too) were surprised by how quickly I was able to get pregnant again.\u00c2\u00a0 We figured it would take a little longer since I am down a tube.\u00c2\u00a0 But apparently not.<\/p>\n
And clearly it doesn’t matter anyway, if I can’t STAY pregnant.<\/p>\n
For now, we’re taking a 6 month break.\u00c2\u00a0 Then we’ll decide where to go from here.<\/p>\n
Neither one of us has felt a strong urge to have a large family.\u00c2\u00a0 I was always okay with 2 kids.\u00c2\u00a0 But then after The Littlest Apple was born, it took us a while to decide we wanted a second child.\u00c2\u00a0 It would be nice to have another child, but I don’t think either of us feels like our family won’t be complete until we have a second child.\u00c2\u00a0 We might be okay with just one.<\/p>\n
My doctor isn’t ready to send us for testing just yet.\u00c2\u00a0 Nor has he said that we won’t be able to have more kids.\u00c2\u00a0 But how much more can I really take, emotionally and physically?<\/p>\n
And if this keeps happening, THEN what?\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t think IVF or fertility treatments would really help, since fertility isn’t the problem.\u00c2\u00a0 Surrogacy?\u00c2\u00a0 Not sure if I want to go there.\u00c2\u00a0 Adoption?\u00c2\u00a0 Not sure about that either.<\/p>\n
It’s starting to become more and more clear to me just how much of a miracle it is that we have The Littlest Apple.\u00c2\u00a0 His name, which means “fair haired warrior” is SO appropriate, don’t you think?<\/p>\n
Maybe one child is enough for us.<\/p>\n
It is for now, anyway.<\/p>\n
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Not viable. That was the news I got yesterday when I went for an ultrasound. I was six weeks pregnant. The doctor said he knew things weren’t quite right before he even did the ultrasound, based on my lab work alone.\u00c2\u00a0 I’ve already had bloodwork done three times since last Thursday.\u00c2\u00a0 (I also went for […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,49],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2469","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-medical","category-motherhood"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2469","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2469"}],"version-history":[{"count":33,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2469\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2502,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2469\/revisions\/2502"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2469"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2469"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2469"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}