{"id":1803,"date":"2010-01-10T09:40:54","date_gmt":"2010-01-10T15:40:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/?p=1803"},"modified":"2010-01-10T10:01:22","modified_gmt":"2010-01-10T16:01:22","slug":"what-me-worry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.thepickyapple.com\/blog\/2010\/01\/10\/what-me-worry\/","title":{"rendered":"What, ME Worry?!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Let’s dive into something a little deeper today, shall we?<\/p>\n

The Worry (with a capital W) is taking over my life right now, and this is NOT a good thing.\u00c2\u00a0 My mind has been filled nearly constantly with worry.\u00c2\u00a0 The more I think, the more I worry.\u00c2\u00a0 As a mostly rational human, I understand that many of the things I worry about are completely out of my control.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t really discuss my faith here, but I am indeed praying about these things and trying hard to realize, as I said before, that it’s mostly (all?) out of my control<\/em>.\u00c2\u00a0 But that doesn’t keep me from worrying anyway.\u00c2\u00a0 I feel like all of that CHANGE I mentioned<\/a> is coming at me way too fast.\u00c2\u00a0 For someone slow to change, any <\/em>change is way too fast.\u00c2\u00a0 The bigger issue is too much<\/em> CHANGE at once.\u00c2\u00a0 Too many<\/em> things to worry about that are all on the horizon.\u00c2\u00a0 As much as I try to just worry about one thing at a time-the most important, the most imminent problem for now-I can’t help but worrying about how THIS thing will affect that OTHER thing that I’m not supposed to be worrying about just yet.\u00c2\u00a0 It can so easily turn in to an all-consuming downward spiral of Worry.\u00c2\u00a0 If that makes any sense at all.\u00c2\u00a0 If you, too are a Worrier, then you are probably nodding your head, thinking that this all makes perfect sense.<\/p>\n

Unless you are like The Picky Apple.\u00c2\u00a0 In which case, you’re thinking I’m just a wee bit nuts.\u00c2\u00a0 That’s okay.\u00c2\u00a0 There’s probably some truth to that.<\/p>\n

The Picky Apple is the anti<\/em>-Worrier.\u00c2\u00a0 He is the complete opposite of me.\u00c2\u00a0 In response to things I say, he frequently says, “I’ll worry about it when I need to.” or “I’ll worry about it when that happens.”\u00c2\u00a0 He considers things, but doesn’t worry <\/em>about things.\u00c2\u00a0 On the one hand, that’s what I strive to be like.\u00c2\u00a0 It is quite admirable to be able to do that.\u00c2\u00a0 To live in the moment.\u00c2\u00a0 On the other hand, as a Worrier, it drives me more than a little crazy.\u00c2\u00a0 Because how can you NOT be thinking about these THINGS that are on the verge of happenning?!\u00c2\u00a0 Doesn’t he even CARE?!\u00c2\u00a0 (Of course, the obvious answer is that he does care.\u00c2\u00a0 Just as much as I do.)\u00c2\u00a0 Again, I know he is indeed thinking<\/em> of these things.\u00c2\u00a0 Just not worrying<\/em> about them needlessly.\u00c2\u00a0 But sometimes this results in his responses to my worry not being what I was looking for.\u00c2\u00a0 Because he doesn’t get it.\u00c2\u00a0 Or more to the point,\u00c2\u00a0 he does<\/em> get it, and he’s consciously trying not to fuel my worry any further.\u00c2\u00a0 That’s probably for the best.<\/p>\n

The other night I unloaded much of my Worry on The Picky Apple.\u00c2\u00a0 I went on for hours, <\/em>I kid you not.\u00c2\u00a0 “What if? What if? What if? What IF? WHAT IF?!”\u00c2\u00a0 At first, The Picky Apple was kind and reassuring.\u00c2\u00a0 Then he was just annoyed with me.\u00c2\u00a0 His advice (which he has repeated countless times, like a broken record), is to focus on whatever problem is the most immediate.\u00c2\u00a0 Not only because that’s what he really believes, but probably also because he can see that telling me not to worry altogether is a lost cause.\u00c2\u00a0 I know I shouldn’t have unloaded on him like that the other night.\u00c2\u00a0 It was just one of those days where I had been bottling up all the Worry and exploded.\u00c2\u00a0 I (hopefully) won’t be doing that again.<\/p>\n

Last night, we had a nice anniversary dinner out at a fancy steakhouse.\u00c2\u00a0 In the car and at the beginning of dinner I was struggling to avoid the topics of Worry that aren’t the most imminent ones.\u00c2\u00a0 Surely a married couple of 6 years can come up with something to talk about, right?\u00c2\u00a0 And we did.\u00c2\u00a0 It was wonderful.<\/p>\n

I’m struggling right now to live in the moment.\u00c2\u00a0 To focus on my daily To-Do Lists.\u00c2\u00a0 Cleaning and decluttering.\u00c2\u00a0 Cooking.\u00c2\u00a0 Running errands.\u00c2\u00a0 This will be our first full week of our regular schedule and routines, and I think that’s going to help immensely.<\/p>\n

Most importantly, I’ll be spending quality time with The Picky Apple and The Littlest Apple instead of spending time with Worry.\u00c2\u00a0 Although The Littlest Apple is a very challenging two year old right now, he’s also saying and doing some of the most amazing things.\u00c2\u00a0 (Amazing to us, anyway.)\u00c2\u00a0 Things I want to remember forever.\u00c2\u00a0 Like the other day when I hurt my foot and he patted me and said,” Don’t worry Mommy.\u00c2\u00a0 It’s going to be ok.”\u00c2\u00a0 Things like that I don’t want to miss because I’m too busy Worrying.<\/p>\n

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