Gloomy Gus

I feel like I need to write this post, even though it won’t make sense to many of you.  I’ve been in a MAJOR funk this week.  Sulking around the house.  Sighing all the time.  Uninspired to do anything at all.  Snapping at my husband and child (who is being particularly trying this week, but that’s no excuse for the snapping).  The occasional tear or two.  I’m a big ole Gloomy Gus right now, and I can’t seem to snap out of it.

Why the funk, you ask?  Well, this is the part where I’m going to be a little vague.  You see, a great opportunity was present to our family.  An opportunity that would take us way outside our comfort zone.  I was very much AGAINST said idea at first, and fought it tooth and nail.  It caused more than a little worry.  But as it seemed more and more likely to happen, I decided to get on board and be excited and supportive.  So I dove in 100%, with all my heart.  I got excited about it!  I got attached.  We were expecting to get some really great news last weekend.  I mean, it was pretty much a done deal.  Until it wasn’t.  Instead we got news that it wasn’t happening at all.  Not now.  Not ever.  Never.  So now my heart is just a little bit broken.  I’m having trouble letting go and moving on.  I’m moping and sulking, and just generally feeling blah.

But I’ve moped enough, and I really think it is time to move on now.  Life is happening all around me, and I’ve been missing it because I’ve been too busy wishing for the thing that wasn’t meant to be.  I need to make the most of the life I have NOW.  Which is pretty great, as it turns out.

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